Phew!

I finally had that 1 on 1 with my supervisor today. It stemmed from me finally writing her a note basically asking her how close I was to getting fired. I was tired of worrying that I was going to show up one day and they were going to have all my shit packed up and an escort for me to my car.

Turns out I have nothing to worry about. Although my attendance has been admittedly bad, it is nothing that they are sweating. I need to work on it of course, but I don't have any official warnings or write-up's to be concerned about. What a relief to know that I am not going to lose my job any time soon. I was upfront with my supervisor and explained my health problems and feelings toward the job and she was very supportive. If I stay with the company, I want to move up and begin doing other (more interesting) things. She thinks that I am a good candidate, so now only time will tell if an opportunity knocks for me. I am changing my shift to a little earlier - 2pm until 10:30 pm, so hopefully that will help with the depression.

I am always grateful for the fact that I even have a job and I hope I never came across as thinking otherwise. I just didn't see myself doing this type of work in my 30's. I let myself down.